LMFAO.

Sometimes I wonder if you still think of me, because I still think of you everyday. Everyday you remain in my thoughts and I don’t think I can ever forget you. You were truthfully the best thing that ever happened to me. I know it’s wrong to think about you as often as I do but everyday something happens that reminds me of you. A Taylor Swift song’ll come on the radio…someone will say something that reminds me of something you once said. I miss our effortless conversations. I miss you supporting me and my decisions to leave. I miss you comforting me when something awful happened. I miss hearing you put down the government, and I miss dissing your taste in music (which was obviously awful cos you liked Taylor Swift) I miss effortlessly smiling when you’d say something sweet. I miss your wicked sense of humour. I miss hearing about your college days and how bad you were for ditching. I miss you being straight edge but being okay with me not being so pure. I miss you telling me how beautiful I am becos that’s what you honestly believed. I miss you trying to avoid an arguement becos you just wanted us to be happy. I miss rushing home so I could talk to you. I miss you Sammy.

So much.

i miss this place

On Thursday, I received a random hug from Brian.

 
He then turned around and said, “I missed you the most over winter break” 

I smiled becos that made my day. 

Thursday was shit. I had gotten my new class schedule and I hated it. I hate having math as my first hour, Psychology as my second, photography as my third, gym (with Le fucking moo) as my fourth, and lunch fifth. Honestly. The rest of my schedule didn’t change much aside from the fact my sixth hour is now US history with Mr. Biga instead of lunch. But I like my sixth through eighth hours. So no big deal there. Anyway. Onto Brian making my day. 

He made my day by just hugging me. Sure I had received a handful of hugs that day, but none of them felt like a genuine “I-miss-you” kind of hug. 

It brightened my day just a little bit. 

After school later that day, I was walking with k8lin, kaleb, and jenn when I saw Brian. I ran up to him and said, ”do you mind if I walk with you?”

He nodded and I shouted goodbye to ksquared and jenn. Then when none of them shouted a “goodbye” back, Brian said that no one cared. I then, pessimistically, replied, “yep. no one ever does”

As we walked out of the school Brian decided to question my relationship with Celeste. I told him, “she’s just mad becos I basically called her a pothead and then she blamed me for her not being able to stop smoking pot” Brian told me that she had called me a bitch and some other stuff. 

What went through my mind? I was thinking, ‘really? Becos I cared about her I’m the bitch? Ok. Fine. I’m just gonna stay away from her’ 

Then in the end, we both agreed the only hope for her was if she married a rich man. 

We parted our ways and I walked home by myself. 

The walk home left me with a lot to think about. 

There’s been so much drama in my life lately and I’ve been having such a hard time dealing with it. What’s been going on at home, and now with my dad. Then, one of my best friends decides to eliminate me as a friend. Then the hate from Amanda Mazurek and her boyfriend. 

I’ll admit, I set myself up for that one. 

I shouldve kept my comments to myself, but I couldn’t. I just don’t understand why they wont leave me alone. I said, “I’m not replying to you guys anymore becos I haven’t got the time or energy for this” both replied. And her boyfriend continued messaging me (I guess hoping I’d reply back but I never did). 

They (mostly amanda becos she insulted me better) put me down too much and I’m all ready really insecure about myself. 

I’m not posting this so you folk can feel sorry for me, I’m posting this becos I can. Becos. I haven’t exactly been myself lately. Becos even though all this crap is going on in my life, I’m not going to resort to do anything stupid. I’m not going to become a druggie, er an alcoholic. I’m going to be ok. 

I don’t need to depend on anything or anyone to help get me out of this. It’s all me. I can only ever depend on myself. Becos if my friends have ever showed me anything (yes, most of you have been really unreliable) its that I need to rely on myself and not on my family or friends. 

With that tumblr, I say goodbye. 

This is my last blog post on cinnamontoastedcrunch. The majority of you know of my new, much cleaner, totally less personal, blog. 

I’m not going to post it on here and I’m not giving it to people who are just going to look at it and judge. My new blog is for me and it’s not to gain new followers. 

Also. I am never, ever going to make a funny picture of Ben Waddell ever again, so those of you who followed me becos I did, you’re losers. Including Ben Waddell who followed me for about three days, then deleted that tumblr and forgot I existed. 

So thank you all for this lovely experience and good night. 

With love, 
Cinnamon. 

WHY HAVE I NOT HEARD OF THE PUNNY RACCOON?!?!!!

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Remember when we had a conversation abt this topic?

ahahaha. yup. :’) we had some pretty awesome convos.

I’m bored. I apologise.

Hi, your name is:
Alex

The last person you kissed, do they love you?
Nope. 

Have you spoke to the person you like today?
Unfortunately no. 

Do you know what your name would have been if you were opposite sex?
It would be Alex. 

Do you have any twins in your family?
Nah. 

Have you ever talked on the phone in the shower/ bathtub?
No. With my luck I’d drop the phone. 

Do you just want to yell in someone’s face right now?
I don’t want to. But I will if I feel like it. 

Do you know where the person you have feelings for is?
Yes. 

Would you lie to the police if it would save your best friend’s life?
Of course. That shouldn’t even be a question. 

Last reason you cried?
I believe I was watching the notebook. 

What were you doing at 4am?
In my bed. Watching family matters. Trying not to sleep. 

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
For now. Things are ok. 

Are you a jealous person?
Yes. 

Are you in a good mood?
Fo shiz. I’ve had my coffee and got loads of new stuffs today. 

Have you ever called a bf/gf by another girl/guys name?
Nope. 

Have you ever dated someone more than once?
Yeah…

Which is harder, telling someone you love them or that you don’t?
It’s harder telling someone you don’t. 

Do you have feelings for someone?
Yes. 

If someone said, “I don’t talk shit about people,” would you believe them?
No. 

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
Nah. 

Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Nope. 

Is there someone who you instantly smile when you talk to them?
Yes.

When you make a 90s video for Claire and your hair won’t flip back to normal.